Saturday, November 15, 2014

My Husband, My Hero

It's occurred to me I've never said thank you. I've never told you how much I appreciate you. I've never said it and I need to. I should have before now. When things got tough, you stayed with me. You've held my hand when I've cried. You listen when I'm angry. You make me smile when I don't want to. I don't know if you do this because you know how or just because you can. Yet, through all my meltdowns you love me. You love me when I'm flawed, you love me when I'm weak, you love me when I'm scared, and you love me when I just need a day in sweatpants. Thank you.

Thank you for making me feel like I'm more than any other woman. Thank you for letting me shine. Thank you for being my dose of reality in life. Thank you for music-less dancing. Thank you for goofy song lyrics. Thank you for long talks in the car. Thank you for kisses before leaving for work. Thank you for surprise love letters. Thank you for doing the dishes the other day. Thank you for the microwave meals and frozen pizza dinners. Thank you for being the saver, not the spender. Thank you for never yelling at me when we disagree. Thank you.

Thank you for fighting when I can't. Thank you for laughing when I won't. Thank you for finding the words when I can't think. Thank you for your prayers. Thank you for thinking of me. Thank you for picking up where I leave off. Thank you for letting me explode. Thank you for putting me back together. Thank you for enduring the fire of my personality. Thank you for kindness. Thank you for understanding. Thank you for support. Thank you.

Autism is genetic in my family, yet during our financial struggles, therapy arguments, and misunderstandings you've never blamed me. You've never accused me of being the cause. I've never said thank you, because in my few weakest moments, I do. I do blame myself and somehow you don't care. Somehow you love me despite my flaws. Somehow you love us unconditionally. Thank you for love I've never known. Thank you.

You're my husband, my hero, and I love you.